tortured soul

two irresolute souls moulded in love
into a singularity
firm exterior, warm interior

it is in this shell that i lived a life
so pure
so free
free of all bounds

you
you burnt a gaping black hole in me
disintegrated the core of what was
me

left nothing but carbon,
the physical remains of a once
complete (forsaken?)
soul

pathetic little worm
so vulnerable
hurt in every degree

if you cut soft material
interwoven
straight down the middle
you leave
edges, rough outcroppings
which scratch
and itch
and make you bleed

now i am an empty cage what was
a man
trapped in child's body
screaming
tearing
gasping
clawing to get out

don't look into my deserted mind
the barren landscape of my tortured self
carved of wood and stone
hollow

be my raft in a sea of misfortune
save this soul not worth saving

find me
save me from myself without you

love me.